Franchising’ll change you

Certain experiences re-wire your brain and heart.

For me, it’s made me a new man.

The old Les is dead and a new Les exists.

I try to accept that reality but change pisses me off, like everyone else. I have grieved the death of past expectations by listening to others.

For those with ears, music is a way of keeping sane in the midst of insanity (delusions: self- and other- based).

And every once in awhile,  I’m reminded why I’ve been on this 11 year vocation.

Til I’m Myself Again, Blue Rodeo

I want to know where my confidence went
One day it all disappeared
And I’m lying in a hotel room miles away
Voices next door in my ear

Daytime’s a drag
Nighttime’s worse
Hope that I can get home soon
But the half-finished bottles of inspiration
Lie like ghosts in my room

I want to go
I know I can’t stay
But I don’t want to run
Feeling this way
Til I am myself
Til I am myself
Til I am myself again

There’s a seat on the corner I keep every night
Wait til the evening begins
I feel like a stranger from another world
But at least I’m living again

There are nights full of anger
Words that are thrown
Tempers that are shattered and thin
But the moments of magic
Are just too short
They’re over before they begin

I know it’s time
One big step
I can’t go
I’m not ready yet
Til I am myself
Til I am myself
Til I am myself again

I had a dream that my house was on fire
People laughed while it burned
I tried to run but my legs were numb
I had to wait til the feeling returned

I don’t need a doctor to figure it out
I know what’s passing me by
When I look in the mirror
Sometimes I see traces of some other guy

I want to go
I know I can’t stay
But I don’t want to run
Feeling this way
Til I am myself
Til I am myself
Til I am myself again

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